I can feel that it’s time for change in my life, but all of my efforts are leading to dead ends. I feel like I’m flailing, and now I’m yearning for the comfort I had. Even though I want to move on, I’m clinging to what I’ve known. Why?
We are often afraid and anxious when something comes to an end. It could be a job we’ve chosen to leave for another. It could be ending a relationship, even when we know it’s not fulfilling us as it should. It could be moving to a new town or even just a new apartment. It could be losing a loved one. Death, or an “ending,” can be devastating and so scary. We resist it; we prolong it; we avoid it at all costs.
I don’t feel comfortable or confident changing my life unless I am guaranteed that it’ll be successful or positive. But nothing in life is guaranteed, and I can’t see the future… which means any sort of change leaves me with awful thoughts.
“What if I fail?”
“What if I regret making this change and wish I could go back?”
“Do I want change because I’m taking my current circumstances and blessings for granted?”
I often (more than I’d like to admit) have to remind myself that even though I don’t know how things will end up, God does. And He loves me too much to lead me down a road I am unsure of and abandon me. So, I turn to the ultimate truth: His Word. >>>
Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “(5) Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; (6) in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 19:31 says, “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”
Romans 15:13 says, “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Change, sometimes painful, comes before growth. “Endings” must occur before something new can start. I pray that I remember this and trust in my guiding and faithful father!