I Can’t Be the Only One Afraid of This

I’m terrified, genuinely terrified, to live an average life.

I have wonderful, big, extraordinary dreams, and some days I get so frustrated that I don’t know each and every step it takes to get there, that I want to give up.

In these moments, I believe that I’m crazy and unrealistic. What makes me capable of something so many aspire for, when nothing in my past says it’s possible?

So I imagine myself working a normal 9-5 and simply being thankful that I’m able to pay my bills. I imagine 1 or 2 vacations per year. I imagine saving my money for a year to help my daughter get her first car. I imagine the tiny house I’d be able to afford if I just rode the wave of life from where I am now to somewhere slightly better. I imagine what my life will look like if I don’t fight for more. Let me tell you… I refuse it.

I refuse to settle. I refuse to let my hopes and dreams for my life die. I refuse to match my future to where I am now. I refuse to trade my time for money, to spend most of my days working on someone else’s dream, and to find myself obsessing over what could’ve been if I hadn’t believed that successful people were a different breed of human than me.

I KNOW, with everything in me, with God’s wisdom on my heart, that the ONLY thing that separates successful and flourishing people from those who are not, is that successful people simply refuse to give up. They refuse to accept “no.” They see the impossible as possible.

So I go back to dreaming, planning, praying, and expecting incredible things, and to clawing my way through discouragement, depression, exhaustion, and plain laziness.

I may have gloomy, doubt-filled, and frenzied days, but those days won’t last forever. And they’re outnumbered by days filled with passion, confidence, love, and hope.

God has big plans for me and His plans will come to fruition. I declare it, y’all!!

Published by Calling Katrina

Katrina, here! *waves effervescently** I fight every day to love life! I'm a HUGE advocate of self-love, fulfillment, positivity, and chasing dreams. I am a lover of writing, reading, self-reflection, and encouraging others to choose Life and Love over pain and suffering. Join me, y’all, in my vulnerability, and let yourself and your default ways of thinking be challenged!!

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